My Human Xperience

PLAY QUANTUM FIELD RUN ABOVE  |  Open Game in New Window LISTEN TO THIS ENTRY Your browser does not support audio playback. Today started with much of the same stuff I've been going through. Pain. Discomfort. Trying to feel better. Trying to stay positive. Trying to maintain the elevated state of mind and spirit I've been working so hard to cultivate. And I'll tell you something. It isn't always easy. I can feel completely uplifted spiritually. I can feel filled with love, gratitude, optimism, and excitement about the things happening in my life. I can genuinely feel blessed. But then there's the pain. And sometimes that pain pulls me right back down to a frequency I don't want to occupy. There are moments when I'm hurting so badly that I become tearful. Sometimes I actually cry. Not necessarily because I'm emotionally def...

UNMUTE LISTEN TO THIS ENTRY “Behold, as the clay is in the potter's hand, so are ye in mine hand, O house of Israel.” — Jeremiah 18:6 (KJV) I've been thinking a lot lately about what God is doing in my life. Not just about what He's doing for me, but what He's doing with me. Because these past few months have been some of the most physically difficult months I've ever experienced. And yet, in the middle of all this pain, I've been watching things happen in my life that seem to be drawing me closer to Him. Doors are opening. Conversations are happening. Relationships are changing. My writing is reaching people. And I'm still trying to understand where all of this is leading. But maybe that's the point. Clay doesn't get to decide what the Potter is making. It simply remains in His hands. The Body I'm Living In It's been...

UNMUTE LISTEN TO THIS ENTRY "Animula, vagula, blandula Hospes comesque corporis Quae nunc abibis in loca Pallidula, rigida, nudula, Nec, ut soles, dabis iocos. Little soul, you charming little wanderer, my body’s guest and partner, Where are you off to now? Somewhere without colour, savage and bare; Never again to share a joke.” Friday, October 16, 2026. It’s around 4:30 in the morning, and I’ve been awake all night. Again. My neck hurts. My back hurts. My body is stiff, and I’m exhausted. For months now, I’ve been dealing with pain that has affected practically every aspect of my life. My ability to work, sleep, move around, concentrate, and sometimes even think clearly. And then there’s the dizziness. I don’t know how many times I’ve tried to explain what I’m feeling to somebody. Sometimes I don’t even know how to explain it to myself. My fa...